My eyes hurt for some reason don't really know why. I think my contacts are bunking out again. Geez!

I know, I can't just ignore this blog and then come back like nothing happened. Or go to other blogs and pretend like this is the only blog I go to. And I'm not going through all those pretenses either. I went to other blogs out of obligation, I was invited and it was only one post if any. Really to be honest I've just been really busy. I needed some space to clear my mind, I didn't know what I wanted. But I'm back and I think I've got this figured out, and I want to start out clean.

I want to share every bit of what I've neglected to share before, but since time has passed and Ching has duplicated blogs of each story it becomes blase. To cut it short I learned how to play poker and I'm good. Nothing to do with strategy or poker faces. I rely on sheer luck, something of which I never run out of.

As well, I got my new schedule for the next realignment which will be Sun - Thur: 9am - 5:45pm. Hopefully this works out. Every realignment I come in psyched about my new schedule then I screw myself by thinking it's late enough I can go binge drinking the night before. It takes about 3 months into the new schedule before I realize it's not a habit a can run with. Right around the written warning ...

Other aspects of my life are better left unblogged. If you know me and I know you ... ring me, I'll tell you as much as I can. (Probably you know already.) The trials and triumphs of my heart has been a source of entertainment through the years for most of you, and I don't want to stop making you laugh but as previously learned in the past blogs are very easy to stalk, and they easily ruin people's lives. Lord, knows I don't need to start that "he-said-she-said-how'd-I-get-in-the-middle-of-this" drama all over again.

I'm cutting my nails
I'm cutting my hair
I'm cutting old pics
I'm cutting the to-do list
I'm cutting the middle man
I'm cutting the rug
I'm cutting my losses
I'm cutting to the point
I'm cutting to the chase

Cut! Cut! Cut! And, yes, I purposely left off "cutting the cheese."

Here's a picture from last Noche Buena at the 'rents. I walk out of my current reality thinking there were happier times before. But seeing this picture, browsing through dad's online album reminds me where I've been. Maybe there weren't happier times before, but I know I deserve happy times now.



Because I Can -- Katy Rose

I keep on looking through the looking glass
And I want to fall on through
Out of the real world to a happy day
Out of the wreckage that I do

I keep on dreamin because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on trippin because its free to a place I only know
I keep on dreamin because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on slippin out of this life

Still my hand won't go to the other side
My boney fingers stay locked here
The glass is cold when I touch my face
But I can taste my salty tears

I keep on dreamin because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on trippin because its free to a place I only know
I keep on dreamin because I can even though my eyes don't close
I keep on slippin out of this life waiting for the drapes to close

Mirror mirror won't you kiss my cheek
And tell me I'll be oK
And warm my spirit with your sugar lips
And help me wait for another day

It's Wednesday. I got most of the cleaning done Monday. The baking is over with and was a success. Today I get to turn my shift bid sheet in along with the cookies. The blog is untended though but I have a good excuse. Yesterday I woke up with this really bad migraine, and a bit of a temperature. I laid in bed most of the day trying to figure out why I felt like poop. Seems like I've been less than healthy lately. Anyway I went to the chiropractor since I've been having the worse back and neck pains as well. He told me I was a little warm but since I was afraid he wouldn't adjust me if I was sick I told him it was because I had my car heater on full blast. He confirmed that my headaches could be due to a pinched nerve, (and something about me leaning to the right.) I get to see the doctor again Monday morning, and I'm hoping that it does fix the problem.

Of course, all the laying in bed thinking helped me come up with my own plan of attack. I new diet. I remember when I saw a dietician the first time I found out I was hypoglycemic. She told me to eat every three to four hours, and to stay away from sugar. I stopped seeing her because at the time I was highly addicted to Pepsi. I think now I'm grown up enough to realize though that my health is very important. I can't feel like poop everyday. So I'm going to load up with snacks I can eat between meals, meals that are easy to prepare, juice and water. That's right folks, I'm going to start drinking water! Lots of it! Everybody pray for me now.

I've got major cleaning to do, I have to bake for my team sometime this week, I've got to clean my car and get an oil change, I have to turn in my shift bid by Wednesday, finish my Xmas shopping by Saturday...Ahhhhhhhh!

I had asked Ching to hide the comments, and she did but left a double on the main page. I think maybe she was in a rush because she made duplicate tags all over my template. But all's well that ends well. She's thought me well enough that I can understand what the tags are for and deleted the unnecessary ones. Hopefully, everyone likes the new layout.

So, she leaves the first comment ever that makes me go, "Hey, that doesn't go there!" So I ring her up and say, "Hey, that doesn't go there!" So, she says "You are missing tags, make me admin." So, I'm all sending her an invite and making her admin, and go "You're admin." Then she's like "Check back in five." I say, "Sweet, and while you're in there..."

Ha! It's like inviting Martha Stewart to your holiday shindig and saying, "I'm not all about the cooking thing, maybe you can whip something up?"

Rejoice! I'm going to the mall...

I found this from spiegel.com. Wish Mom still worked there so I could get my 30% off discount. Here's the damage:

Full/Queen Duvet. N64 691 6801Price Regularly $129.00 ... Sale $109.00
Queen Bed Skirt. N64 691 6809Price Regularly $59.00 ... Sale $49.00

(four pillows)
Standard Sham. N64 691 6804 EachPrice Regularly $39.00 ... Sale $29.00 *2
Euro Sham. N64 691 6805Price $39.00 *2

(queen size iron wrought canopy bed)
Queen Suspended Bed Canopy. N64 691 6814Price $69.00

-------total------- $363.00

By the way, I checked my stats. There's atleast 885 page requests in the less than 30 days that I've had this page up. So there's some people that are religously checking this site. I've activated the comments link so leave your mark. I want to know who you are.

I have set up audio blog! Where's it at you ask? Well, I'm a little shy. As I pondered on the need for the nifty little feature I also considered the fact that I sound like a whiny pre-teen over the phone.

But I signed up and it's ready to go specifically for fun during those bar hopping hours. Can you say "drunk dial"? Ah, no more scanning through the phonebook thinking "Who's up/out/cares?" Just dial Audio Blog!

Then again I'm reminded of that long ago phase. When I use to get home, crawl into bed and spoon with my lap top. The phase where I created the term "drunk-mass-emailing." Ugh! I cringe with the mere thought. The "V" key practically flew out of the keyboard one night as I bitterly added the word "love" into a poem Mr Cuervo and I cowrote.

I'm going to break my phone. I can see myself drunk dialing "Audio Blog" and getting carried away. Oh, I'm going to break my phone. Let me think about this again...

Just thinking about CD's I always wanted to buy since Billy Currington was in town and I didn't get to go to the show.



1. I Got a Feelin'
2. That's Just Me
3. Hangin' Around
4. Off My Rocker
5. Walk a Little Straighter
6. Where the Girls Are
7. Time With You
8. When She Gets Close to Me
9. Growin' Up Down There
10. Next Time
11. Ain't What It Used to Be

And of course from my personal fave, the main man mraz ...




Tracks:
1. Running
2. Did I Fool Ya
3. Little You & I
4. You & I Both
5. 1000 Things
6. Unfold
7. Dream Life of Rand McNally
8. Halfway Home
9. Bright Eyes
10. After an Afternoon
11. Conversation With Myself
12. Common Pleasure
13. Zero Percent
14. At Last/Sleep All Day
15. Hey Love

Yeah, wasn't it just Monday last week? Geez!

Friday was a bit overloaded for me, considering I did not work, or get to clean my apartment. The pampering went overboard, but I survived. Saturday was worse, but more enlightening. Yet again, still alive so no complaints. Sunday much better. Ah, the day of rest!

Things I learned this weekend:
1. Tita Sol does not like wearing anything around her neck i.e. scarves.
2. The perk is just not the same anymore.
3. Catty blond chicks will not glare at Carissa if I am there to divert there attention.
4. I, apparently, have a tendency of getting into situations that turn "weird"
5. deride\De*ride"\, v. t. [See Ridicule] To laugh at with contempt; to laugh to scorn; to turn to ridicule or make sport of; to mock; to scoff at.
6. Audrey is turning 21. Yay! No more Graham Central Station!
7."Knowing others is intelligence. Knowing yourself is true wisdom." - Lao Tse

Carissa and I went to the mall yesterday and I spotted this Interchangeable Jade Ring at Dillards. To which the sales lady had advised me it was the only one they had left. Which is believeable considering that when I tried it on it fit. I have very small fingers which would figure why no one has been able to fit in them or buy them.

$149.99 was the price the lady gave me, and at the time I thought I was just being frugal by not buying it but easily realized I was being smart. I had overspent yesterday. I spent an entire week not buying anything to save money and in one day I spent on a new coat, a manicure and pedicure, lunch, dinner, and drinks. Now I'm broke, and instead of all those worthless things I could've bought that ring.

To top it off I find one store online has it for $99, and another for $39.99. I am hitting myself over the head for this one.

"It was a beautiful letdown when I crashed and burned, and I found myself alone, unknown and hurt." --Switchfoot

I had planned on having this day off for more than a month now. Starting out I know already it's not the way I had planned it out. Making the best of it, however, I've started cleaning my car. I'll get an oil change and get it vaccummed and such. As well my apartment is needing some deep cleaning. The bathroom has managed to stay immaculate since Becky was here to clean it for me, but the carpet is once again showing the dirt between the piles of clothes I brought in and out.

I also have to take care the I don't waste the day away without pampering myself a bit. I've been so good lately. No more overspending and getting overdraft fees, no more bar hopping almost nightly, I go to work on time when I'm scheduled - I think I deserve a present. I've been a good girl.

Just a quick look into this site as I make a couple changes to it which most will probably not even notice. And when I say most I mean 7 out of the 8 people that know this site exists, my "40th website so far" according to Becky. I know the blog so far has been updated daily, and I was really proud of a great start. When Becky asked me if this would last I told her yes, but I guess I lied. Just for now the site needs to rest. My life in under construction and I want a chance to let the dust settle before I take another step. Lord knows, with my carpentry skills the ceiling's probably just about ready to fall on me.

I meant to study, I've been meaning to study, and then last night I just had to go to Finn's. But wait, I did a fast cram session during breakfast.

There are 435 reps in congress

There are 100 senators

Independence Day July 4, 1776

Declaration of Independence was written in the year 1787

Proclamation of Emancipation was to free many slaves

And now Dad's ready to go...Don't cry for me Argentina...er...Kansas.

I was going online to study for my INS test but I got lazy. - "You are a foregone conclusion..." whispers in the air. What? Who was that? I hate you! - Where was I? Oh, yeah, but I'm planning on studying at work so it'll be okay.

Anyway, interview is tomorrow morning so I have half the day off work. I don't have to come in until 3pm and then I have scheduled to have PTO on Friday. Woohoo! Hopefully celebrating being one step closer to my citizenship.

This weekend, Ray had mentioned, we needed to go xmas tree shopping. I was all about the idea a while back, but considering the clean up after I opted to just dececorate with garlands and stockings. Either way, it's a lot of decorating, but I wouldn't pass it up because of all the picture ops after. As well, I have presents stacking up in my apartment that need to be wrapped, and cards that need to be sent out. This holiday shananigans is going to take a lot out of me.