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Carissa finally got some of the photos back from her bday shindig. Unfortunately only a few made it online, I wonder why. Prior to posting she had mentioned that she was only showing those "preapproved" photos. What a shame. I'll see if I can swindle the rest from her soon.

Then there's the request to tell her who she was licking. I don't know. Who was she licking? Not me, or I would have noticed. Crazy white girl.

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So, I type and stress. He says to let him know when I'm done and leaves me in front of the computer as he does laundry. I think, "Uh oh, I better hurry and cuddle before he realizes that time without me is much more relaxing." I publish and post but before I can even get up and out of the chair he comes back in with a kiss and says with a smile "Take your time my show is on." What show? Stargate.

Hahahahhahaha! My geeky bunny!

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I will be duplicate blogging for the meantime. I am so short with luxury time these days I really can't even afford to sit in front of the computer that much anymore. Right now Ray is being patient enough, (since he despises sharing what little time quiet time we have together to the computer,) to let me type furiosly while he finishes his laundry.

Just got home from dinner at Ray's parents house. I felt really bad since I was looking forward to it all week but I could hardly eat anything from being sick. Today at work I had a really bad sugar spell. I even threw up while trying to beg the vending machine to "Please give me my chips!" Cold hearted machines, it kept demanding that I "make another selection." So instead of my usual Chili Cheese Fritos I had to get the Barbucue Chips. And like I said I actually threw up, but I toughed it out. It was my fault anyway. I loaded myself with sugar all morning. For breakfast I had cinnamon sticks, cappuccino and nutty bars. I was dead before lunch time could attempt to save me. Good thing we were slow or I would have killed someone.

Anyway, I got some more clothes unpacked this weekend. I have too many clothes, yet somehow I can never find anything to wear. I still have three more boxes to go through before I can start unpacking my shoes. Oy!

Ray helped me move the TV into my apartment. My free basic cable comes with MTV. Hehehehehehe! I'm not sure if it's supposed to but don't tell anyone lest they take it away from me.

Aside from the basic catching up with chores and sleeping I also went to eat dinner at Sumo's with Audrey and her family. Tita Beverly was nice enough to pay for dinner so in exchange we took them all to the Shadow and Ray paid for their drinks. It was actually fun sitting there trying to figure out what Audrey and Tita Bev wanted to drink. I think I pretty much kept ordering different things until they settled on their own favorites. Ryan was the easiest to please, he ordered what I had (bloody mary) and drank it even though he compained it was "hanghang" which mean hot/spicy in tagalog. I look forward to hanging out with them again but Audrey said the next time won't be until April 30th at which time I plan to be in Memphis for the big music shindig.

Ray is done with laundry and has settled in front of the tv. I probably should go cuddle for a bit and leave my geekiness online. Ciao, babies!

As posted in MySpace

Female
24 years old

In a relationship
Sagittarius

I'm a Think Geek fanatic, raised in a Techie household where dinner conversations are filled with who has implemented a better plugin for their current website - I always lose. Because unlike my very determined self proclaimed hacker father I cannot sit and read a book about the newest and coolest programming language cover to cover - I prefer Descartes. And unlike my swear-to-god-she-doesn't-sleep sister I cannot stare at a glaring monitor until I've written 1000 words per entry - unless I'm drunk or recently drunk warming my hands with a cup of coffee. And though I respect both of them and strive to catch up as much as I can I have found my true solace in Mom who shares my love for shopping and spending other people's money.

I like starting random blogs and leaving them untended for other generations to semi-read. Currently working on abandoning www.crankymonkey.com. So far I haven't offended enough people to call it a success so until then I keep on blogging.

To my friends I'm a push over that will do anything without complaint for anyone lest they pout and start crying IN FRONT OF ME. I stay away from the perpetually hurt because I cannot afford to feel sorry for anyone other than myself. I have been known to drink myself loud and funny or until I have lost my car keys earning my ride home and the right to keep drinking. To others - I'm a drama causing whore that don't know when to quit.

Coming up ... a preview of the next episode.

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I say your name out loud, and the wind starts to blow
Shaking the yellow leaves from the trees
They float down like snow all over my newly washed car
The word "monsoon" comes to mind
But I know it has nothing to do with this at all

I say your name out loud and it starts to rain
I know that those yellow leaves will now
Create some dirty mud stain on my car
When the sun comes out again, and dries the rain away
And I can't help but feel irritated

And after I start to realize the poetry, the coincedence,
The power your name might posses
It all just starts to calm down
No more wind, no more rain
Damn, this Kansas weather

I want to sit here and rant about my new phone but I'd rather just sit here and mess with the new settings and download ringtones while eating Tasty Kakes so ciao!

Yesterday after work I headed to Ray's and nabbed his Allen Wrench. Then I went straight to my old apartment and prepared for a laboriously long night. What I did: packed 3 boxes worth of books, 8 coats, 3 boxes and 5 trash bags (I ran out of boxes) of clothes (an addition to the clothes I already had moved prior,) two trash bags of shoes, and countless boxes of junk. I loaded my car with as much as would fit and headed home to unload, crash and get back up the next day 7 am sharp.

For my "vacation" day I disassembled a queen size canopy bed and relocated it, the box springs and the mattress to the living room. (That made me feel studly.) I loaded the rest of what I could move in my car, threw out 10 trash bags of...trash...and waited for the movers to load the rest of my earthly possessions. $80 an hour with a 2 hour min seemed steep at first, but after they got there loaded everything and unloaded in my new apartment in an hour and 15 mins with tired little me no longer having to lift a finger was well worth it.

After the movers left I stared at my formerly empty apartment knowing I will leave half of my relocated clutter unpacked for 3 to 4 months. I sat in the tub with the full intent of slowing down and relaxing but to no avail. 30 minutes later I met Mom and Tita Esper for lunch at PF Changs.

On my way home I stopped at the gas station for a bottled water and a Glamour mag. Got home, laid on the sofa, the mag fell and I was asleep. Ray called and woke me up to let me know I can now drive 15 minutes to take a nap elsewhere. No complaints though.

I'm up and about now, obviously, and I will drive off to get dinner and after dinner look forward to a well deserved long deep sleep.

Thank you Nbundy for reuniting me with the best cartoon ever. I saw this moons ago and it's hilarious. "WTF, mate" stuck to me like glue and everyone else had always looked at me like "WTF?" (hahahhahah, little joke, I'm funny.) Anyway, click the link and there's the explanation.

Two concerts I need to plan for:

04/12/05 Jason Mraz - Cain's Ballroom Tulsa, OK
05/10/05 The Killers - Uptown Theater Kansas City, MO

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Ordinary People
--John Legend

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow This time We'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
Maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
You never know baby you and I

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

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Taken with appreciation from Becky's Blog, oh, and check this out...an excerpt from Becky's Blog:

14. If you could go back in time, and change ONE thing, what would you change?

Once again, "no comment". But I swear they stole my chicken!

They did steal her chicken. It was hilarious. I want to share the story so badly, email me.

Cranky Monkeymay explode without warning

M EXPLOSIVE

So I lost my car keys. No, it's not in the ignition where I usually find it after having the car unlocked by This-And-That Towing Services. It's somewhere (I presume) in the hands of an "I will find a set of keys and fail to turn it in" culprit, causing me to lose my cool factor while out with Becky and Jacob, my long time friends that I haven't seen in a very long time. Making me into a hopeless patron of 24 hours emergency services, including Jason (thank you), and hitting me with the undeniable fact that I hate myself.

The day after I spent at work hung over and lacking sleep hating every one that beeped through my headset. For lunch I tried to alienate loved ones, (sorry Bunny,) stressed and frustrated at having f-ed up once again. I am forever in the situation of needing help. I am constantly THE lost cause. And during a blow out phone session trying to explain why I don't need THIS stress I explained out loud, more to myself than to the other person, why this is bigger than itself and that the problems I've swept under the rug in the past are now demanding immediate attention.

Why I am stressed:

because I have lost my car key, my apt key, my mailbox key (and whatever else was on the f-ing key ring.)

because I could have prevented the loss by paying more attention, drinking less/slow, or staying home for goodness sake

because this loss has caused me to slow down in my moving process which I still have a lot of to do

after the hectic move I will find my deposit gone and possibly need to pay for a new fridge since I have no time to invest in cleaning the one I "ruined"

after having paid for the unlock services (car and apt) I will find my bank acct overdrawn once again

being overdrawn will force me to appreciate BOTH of my current jobs and resent myself for not having a better job

wishing for a better job will remind me that I am stuck in this position until I get a degree

I will go through the why-am-I-not-in-school trauma realizing that my laziness has prevented me from having the unstressed life I have been faking

I will hate my lazy, drunken, forgetful self more which will give me more reason to be lazy, drunken and forgetful out of sheer depression

my friends will notice that the laziness has caused me to skip showers and no one will sit close to me

my drunkenness will wreak havoc and cause the downfall of personal relationships but still not enough for me to sign up for AA classes

I will forget once again that I hate myself so I will not enroll in school this summer like I had planned, go out more often and I will lose the set of keys that I have yet had made to get myself back into my car/apt

It's a crazy cycle, I know, I wrote it that way.