First, about two weekends ago...Misty's bday shindig at the Pub. Misty is Ching's friend so I'm not posting her pics here just pics of me, Jacob, Brian and Ching.









Jacob has been working out a lot... Even Ching noticed he lost weight. I thought he was adorable before now he's hot. I wish I had a hot friend to hook him up with, but by now I think he's hooking up enough on his own.

Then the week after, the reason for all the overtime, my new car.







Notice I'm using the tag from my old car. To all you stalkers don't get funny ideas, I just got a new tag today. Leave me and my car alone!

Of course, all the overtime I ended up having an emotional breakdown in the middle of a workday. Saw the doctor who prescribed new meds which didn't settle that well. I had to call in Saturday, still feeling awful from throwing up the night before but having the opportunity to go to my son's bday I decided to suck it up. I didn't let anyone, but Mom, know at the time how sick I really was because everyone already thinks I'm unstable as it is. Here are some pics, not many of me but I got some cuddling time with my boy.









I have some pictures I took from the disposable cam that Matt provided at the party which is still at WalMart waiting to be picked up. I guess more to come soon. These pics were taken some by Mom and some by Ching. My family is big on Kodak moments.

Having two sick days in a row didn't help my financial situation. All the overtime (I put in 22 hrs in a week to be exact) was all for nought. So I'm back to square one. I felt distraught when I saw my paycheck this morning, and started regretting not putting in more hours for yesterday and today, but Ray put me at ease. Yesterday Ray and I took Logan out. We mainly played at Chuckie Cheese's. At home Logan shared his GameCube with Ray, and in turn Ray shared his PSP. They're so cute on each other. Ray says you can't buy days like that and I realized how right he was. I'm glad I have Ray to keep me sane.



























Thanks to you Ray as well for taking all the pics.

So maybe I don't have enough money to pay for my car registration, my car insurance, and still have left over for groceries. But guess what! I have 160 tickets to go towards a real big prize. All I need is 50 more tokens to get more tickets, and 50 tokens is only $10. So that donate button to the left, use it.

As a recap, I stopped taking the new meds after it made me throw up my dinner, I'm still taking my regular meds but I find it's only necessary when Logan's not around. I also realized that with all my bitching about what I have to put up with being around Ray, I am full of shit. The man will stop time when I call crying, he's on my side when I feel picked upon, and he's the only one that has achieved in convincing me that reality is not anything I should be running from. The reality is I'm surrounded by people that have sheltered and pampered me through all my manic bipolarness.

So when I make a scrapbook of my blessings, it's looks like this blog. No pics of Mom and Dad, but they're the biggest part because they take care of Logan for me, especially when I drift off into my irresponsible mode. And I now Ching and Brian have my back too, even though they pick on me A LOT. And I have friends that I can just run to and hug and call and cry too and they never wonder anymore why I'm up and down all the time because they love me just the way I am. And Ray because time and time again he's shown he'll do anything to keep me happy. That's all I need. Now, reality is not that bad.

I hope I stay in this mind frame. I'm sober right now, I guess you can call it that. I haven't popped a single pill since Tuesday. Of course, I took three Tuesday but that was dramatic for me. Really. We won't even get into that.