Because I can, I have. I delete posts at my discretion. I know, I know, I was morally opposed to it myself once but sometimes it's necessary to maintain the harmony between good and evil.

Frankly, I don't feel up to par today. Last night hit me hard. I guess I'm just not as young as I use to be. You have to consider though that I was up by 6:14am yesterday morning so I managed to stay up for 22 hours straight. (Thanks to the red bull and vodkas that Jason started feeding me after seeing me almost falling asleep at the loosers lounge.) Actually, I ended up at Denny's after hours for breakfast and saw other friends there. It was a bit awkward as I never know what to do when two different worlds collide. There were special people about. I got butterflies, goosebumps, sly smiles and giggles. I even had a dream about everything I was secretly plotting in my head. What? You don't know what I'm talking about? Well, then you never will! I'm crazy cool like that. Anyway, it will all remain as it currently is, a secret plot in my head never to be revealed or executed. Why? I have a conscience. Let's all thank Ray for finally teaching this girl about boundaries.

Speaking off...ah, well no. We cannot speak of. Hence, the disappearing blogs. Allow me just to say Ray has been a major influence in my life within this last 11 months and has affected me in many ways. He has change a lot of things about me for the better, and the things he changed for the worst is not as hard to fix back. It will be hard to forget him, much less keep him out of my life, which I hope will not be necessary. Regardless of differences, I gave him my heart, that in itself makes him special, so if he'll have me as his friend after all the havoc I've caused I'd be more than grateful. Of course this is after we get done cutting each other down. 'Coz we're crazy cool like that.