Sunday, January 02, 2005
A, B, C, D, and E the Final Post
A tiny recap from a past blog that Carissa and I used to tend. Posts from 08.20.2003, 09.24.2003, and 12.12.2003 will give some insight. Let's see if we can finally put this chapter to close.
More than a year later...
Guy A is MIA. Lord, knows where he is or what he's doing. Right now I can't really be bothered to even guess, I have too much going on. To be honest I can barely remember anything about him anymore.
Guy B was supposed to be a friend and confidant. Life, trying to even out the score, decided "Screw putting up with his complications let's see if he can deal with yours." Ladies and gents, I'm here to announce that he couldn't. Now who's the foregone conclusion?
Guy C still irritates me to no end. I want him to stop showing up everywhere I go. I need him to move.
Guy D I haven't seen since probably the last entry. I don't know why he was ever part of the contention. Carissa and I speculate he finally got a ride to Emporia and stayed for his eternal "Kegger." He was a strange one.
Guy E aka Mystery Man. Maybe I'm being slightly cold during this entry but I barely remember him either. I hope I'm not shorting anyone of credit their due, my memory is just not the same. He was cool, I remember that much.
I guess I needed a public show that I'm putting all this behind me. A year ago I pleaded with life to let me stay in this paradise of non-relationships. Without meaning to I tripped into my current "taken" status and seems like I was never single before. For anyone who basks in impossibilities and drama let me let you in on a little secret - impossibilities and drama don't just exist in certain scenarios, they are created and can be placed in EVERY scenario.
One long post just to say, I've decided to grow up and settle down. I've seen complications overwhelm strong and wise characters from my past, I don't want to go down like them. And maybe this morning I just woke up scared. Superstition has it what you do while welcoming the new year is what you do for the rest of that year. Well, guess what I did... I went to the Pub with Ray and waited for the midnight kiss. Guy B walks by and I try to ignore him, of course I'll say for Ray's sake, because we've had issues about this guy and I didn't want Ray upset. I thought Guy B had left, it didn't look like he was there with anyone anyway. So Ray and I enjoy the rest of the night, we down our jello shots and champagne and play pool. (I think about five games where I didn't even win one.) Then Guy B is back and all I know is he's fallen drunk by where we stood. He's made an ass of himself. Recap last night Ray said he was actually crawling aroung the filthy bar carpet. Of course, Ray has caught on the fact that I knew him and asked me who he was. I was trying not to say anything to spare the usual drama. Ray knew his name, but never met him. I come clean and Ray surprised me by being the most understanding he has ever been ALL YEAR. He really is trying to change. I should have never doubted it. We continue playing til we were out of quarters and then head home. So Ray's off to a good start welcoming the new year with his new non-jealous calm and collected attitude. And I ... I spent the night trying to dodge ex-involvements. I'd rather not be doomed to that activity for an entire year.
So I've resolved to let go of all the baggage. I'm sure Ray however cool he acted didn't deserve the witness the drunken charade by Guy B either. I'm done trying to defend anyone's character. Ray is trying his hardest to be better and I'm on his side, especially if you're going to act like an ass.
More than a year later...
Guy A is MIA. Lord, knows where he is or what he's doing. Right now I can't really be bothered to even guess, I have too much going on. To be honest I can barely remember anything about him anymore.
Guy B was supposed to be a friend and confidant. Life, trying to even out the score, decided "Screw putting up with his complications let's see if he can deal with yours." Ladies and gents, I'm here to announce that he couldn't. Now who's the foregone conclusion?
Guy C still irritates me to no end. I want him to stop showing up everywhere I go. I need him to move.
Guy D I haven't seen since probably the last entry. I don't know why he was ever part of the contention. Carissa and I speculate he finally got a ride to Emporia and stayed for his eternal "Kegger." He was a strange one.
Guy E aka Mystery Man. Maybe I'm being slightly cold during this entry but I barely remember him either. I hope I'm not shorting anyone of credit their due, my memory is just not the same. He was cool, I remember that much.
I guess I needed a public show that I'm putting all this behind me. A year ago I pleaded with life to let me stay in this paradise of non-relationships. Without meaning to I tripped into my current "taken" status and seems like I was never single before. For anyone who basks in impossibilities and drama let me let you in on a little secret - impossibilities and drama don't just exist in certain scenarios, they are created and can be placed in EVERY scenario.
One long post just to say, I've decided to grow up and settle down. I've seen complications overwhelm strong and wise characters from my past, I don't want to go down like them. And maybe this morning I just woke up scared. Superstition has it what you do while welcoming the new year is what you do for the rest of that year. Well, guess what I did... I went to the Pub with Ray and waited for the midnight kiss. Guy B walks by and I try to ignore him, of course I'll say for Ray's sake, because we've had issues about this guy and I didn't want Ray upset. I thought Guy B had left, it didn't look like he was there with anyone anyway. So Ray and I enjoy the rest of the night, we down our jello shots and champagne and play pool. (I think about five games where I didn't even win one.) Then Guy B is back and all I know is he's fallen drunk by where we stood. He's made an ass of himself. Recap last night Ray said he was actually crawling aroung the filthy bar carpet. Of course, Ray has caught on the fact that I knew him and asked me who he was. I was trying not to say anything to spare the usual drama. Ray knew his name, but never met him. I come clean and Ray surprised me by being the most understanding he has ever been ALL YEAR. He really is trying to change. I should have never doubted it. We continue playing til we were out of quarters and then head home. So Ray's off to a good start welcoming the new year with his new non-jealous calm and collected attitude. And I ... I spent the night trying to dodge ex-involvements. I'd rather not be doomed to that activity for an entire year.
So I've resolved to let go of all the baggage. I'm sure Ray however cool he acted didn't deserve the witness the drunken charade by Guy B either. I'm done trying to defend anyone's character. Ray is trying his hardest to be better and I'm on his side, especially if you're going to act like an ass.
posted by Jenni #
7:45 AM 
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Wow! Good post, Jen! I'm impressed. Very insightful and revealing.. But one can only hope that it's all for REAL, really. Just kidding. More power to you.
p.s. Mom wants those two suits that I gave you. Give them to her since they're too big for you anyway.
p.s. Mom wants those two suits that I gave you. Give them to her since they're too big for you anyway.
Ching > RE: Suits. I was going to have them altered plus she's bigger than you and those were too small for you, how will it work?
Bunz > On your personal site? You have a professional one?
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Bunz > On your personal site? You have a professional one?
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